For the first time since I wrote it, I just went back and reread my opening Blog: June 3rd, 2008, the title read, ‘Hello World!’ I couldn’t help but smile as I read it. I was so naïve back then…
Now as I write my September 30th Blog I feel like an old pro. Give or take a day, I’ve written four months worth of Blogs just as I said I would. Some days it’s hard, some days it’s easy. Some days I wake up and know exactly what I want to write while others are spent looking online for a topic that strikes my fancy. The point is, I’m doing what I set out to do. I wanted to write a Blog everyday for a year to see where it took me, to see if it helped me ‘find my voice.’ The result thus far: it’s been uncomfortable, but I’ve realized that I need a lot of work as a writer. There’s a reason my books weren’t getting published and it’s not because they aren’t good. It’s because I can do better.
I’ve found that since beginning this Blog, writing outside of the Blog, is harder. I begin and stop, begin and stop at least a dozen different stories a month. None of them seem good enough. None of them seem right. Some are written in chapter form, others are written as TV shows. It’s been tough and I’ve questioned myself quite a bit.
In the meantime however, I just keep Blogging. Tomorrow will be October 1st and maybe it’ll be the day when all the pieces click together. Maybe October will by my lucky month of grand articulation – the month my masterpiece becomes clear. Or maybe it’ll be the month where I give up this whole crazy notion and get a job at the bank. I saw a sign the other day that said ‘tellers wanted’…I think I’d make a great teller. Counting money has always been a talent of mine.
Until then…over and out.